#6 fuck it we ball 4eva

 hello everynyan i have not gotten a normal full nights rest in 3 days and hopefully that chain will be broken tonight . i am comfy cozy in my bed and ready for slumber but i wanted to write this first. on sunday night, i pulled a random all nighter because i had to finish the slides of a presentation. on monday, i got home from school and immediately crashed, and woke up at 11pm. luckily i was able to fall asleep again, but i still felt like absolute dogshit on tuesday. i went nonverbal partially from overstimulation and partially because i was dissociating and my voice sounded like it wasn't mine. im alright today, even though i had an asthma attack last night i managed to get through the day. that's all i can really ask of myself at the moment, lest i fucking collapse on the pavement outside my school

today i broke out my chromebook and drew a peen in ibispaintx for shits and giggles . yaoifan08 then walked up the stairs, looked at my screen, and got fucking jumpscared (^_^") she then proceeded to compliment my schlong drawing capabilities. thank you yaoifan08

y'know, you would think a class titled "2d animation" would be primarily about learning at least the basics of animation. NOPE it's mostly about story world-building and comic strips. i guess im not totally opposed to that because i like working on my original stuff but i still feel like i got freaking kyubey scammed. as in if i asked my guidance counselor why he didn't specify what the class is actually about the response would probably be "well you didn't ask...." 

i don't wanna complain too much, all things considered. right now, i'm feelin' pretty okay. things will get better. even if carrying on with my day-to-day life hurts sometimes. even if im stressed out like nobody's business